Lego house.
I didn't even know when I started getting butterflies whenever you're around. One moment, we were trash talking each other as we play our favorite video games, then the next time I know, there was this commotion inside me whenever you touch me, be near me, or even when you simply cross my mind. I didn't understand what I am feeling.
We literally grew up together, aside from the fact that we were neighbors, our parents are best friends. And maybe that's why, as we grew up, we became best friends as well. In a way, it was inevitable or planned.
You saw me on my underwear, I witnessed you go through the whole wetting the bed stage, we learned how to ride the bike at the same time, and even bought matching bicycle(mine pink, yours blue), you taught me to play tennis, and I thank you by giving you a scar below your left eyebrow, and I cried so hard that time that we both swore I will never hold a tennis racket ever. You were there when I got my heart broken by a douche bag, and the next day I saw him with a black eye, and I was there for you to bring you home safe whenever you're drunk or passed out. You never left my side and held my hand when my dad died, and even more when my mom decided to go abroad because "she could not bear to live in a place where all dad's memories linger", those were even her exact words. I remember you bringing me ice cream that time, every single day for a whole month, and that's when I start believing that the world is still a ball full of sunshine. I did the same for you when your parents got divorce. Its the first very first time I saw you cry. We were there for each other all the time, because in a way we are all we've got. We were brothers and sisters, link not by blood, but by heart.
And when I realized what this is all about, I ignore it and decided to keep it all locked inside a box and forbid it to ever come out. I thought about everything we went through, and how complicated everything would be if you knew what I feel about you. And complication is not something I wanted from you, because you really are all I have in this world. I thought about how my feelings would only ruined our strong relationship. You must understand that you are that sunshine I'm referring to, and I can't live in darkness again. When we're together, it was like we were in this special cocoon that keeps us happy and safe at all time. We were so comfortable as best friends, and I thought I cannot afford to lose that.
But as I look at you now, all I can think is I wish you knew all my feelings for you before you finally tell her "I do".
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Thursday, May 10, 2012 @ 10:09:00 PM / comments
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